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Being arrested used to carry a lot more weight than it does now. I still remember my first arrest vividly—it didn’t matter what the charge was. What mattered was the overwhelming sense of finality, the sudden halt to everything I thought I knew about myself. As I sat there in the cold, empty cell, utterly alone, I couldn’t escape the gnawing silence. It forced me to confront myself, to reflect on every decision that had led me to that moment.
I replayed my life over and over in my head, tracing the steps that brought me to that place. I thought about my mother—how much I must have let her down. Her love was constant, but my actions spoke of disregard, and I knew she deserved better. Then, I thought about my father. He was cruel, distant, and seemed to care little about the man I was becoming. In that lonely cell, I wondered if their failings as parents had shaped me, if their choices, their flaws, were to blame for mine. Could I have turned out any different under different circumstances?
But as the minutes passed, my thoughts began to shift. I realized it wasn’t just about them—it couldn’t be. While my parents actions undoubtedly influenced me, I couldn’t lay the entirety of my life’s path at their feet. I am my own person, shaped by their choices, yes, but ultimately responsible for my own. It was a sobering realization. I could continue to blame them, to see myself as a victim of their failings, or I could acknowledge my agency, my ability to change the course of my life.
This is a realization i could never have with a 5 minute arrest timer. I would have stopped at blaming my parents, instead of getting to the core of my problems... me. Let us bring back a period of self reflection to our community!