It was a singular server; it was after countless messages, after being asked due to calling someone out as a joke in the beginning who bought NSFW images in synergy, politely declining, I was under the influence when it occurred. It shouldn't have happened, I did it a few times over a few days, but I felt guilty due to Gender Dysphoria, and have already said and told myself I wasn't going to do that again. That's in no excuse to me doing it, and not a valid argument, but again, the person was 18+, in a community that had worse being put in every day with slurs. It was an unacceptable thing for me to do there.
Here is the message I had sent to a close friend after the situation.
I was disgusted, as before this, only around 4 people who were in which close and buddies of mine and unrelated to Garry's Mod or even Arma 3.
I'm unsure as to who I sent it to after my ban? I have a list of everyone who has ever received it, and I don't believe I am missing anyone.
I know, i cannot change what I did, it was gross and unacceptable. In which I apologize.
I cannot change what happened in synergy, however, I'm aware after months, what I did in synergy was unacceptable
I'm gonna hold off on sending any more after this, as It's going to be back and foward messages, I cannot change anyone's opinion, as they are all extremely valid complaints. I just wish for another chance to come back, and enjoy this server.