Deadly Posted July 11, 2018 Report Share Posted July 11, 2018 I honestly do not know how to even begin this at all. I've been wanting to write this for over a week, but have not been able to do it until now. Part of me wanted to not even write this thinking, "no one will care anyways; it's probably just a waste of time." I've come to realize that isn't true and that many people do care about my leaving, so here I am...writing my goodbye. As you can tell from the title, I don't plan on coming back ever. Now, as the saying goes around here: "You can't quit Starwars RP; they will always come back." I've seen this happen many times, but for myself personally, don't count on it. I tried coming back about 2 weeks ago. I tryouted for CG and failed bc I forgot about the Brotherhood Code (Yes I know I'm stupid. I was Battalion Commander Doom once, am I really this much out of the loop now?) At first I was like I'll try again in the morning and get in (since I remembered it was the last thing to do in tryouts I figured I'd just come back and join easily, but when I woke up I realized something. Maybe Starwars RP and Garry's Mod just isn't right for me anymore. I had my day and now it's time to move on. As sad as it makes me, I just can't find the fun in it anymore. My perspective has changed. When I first joined all I wanted to do was troll. Jayarr's leadership pushed me to do otherwise and take it seriously. He trusted me and I was probably one of the best NCO's this server has even seen. Anyways, most of you know my story, I worked my way up to Commander and became Jayarr's 3rd in Command (Behind DU Veteran Fours). After Jayarr became Regimental I had both his and the entire battalion's support to apply for Doom. I got it and it was very shortlived, because of...well most of you already know the story, and I'm not trying to receive any of your pity or anything like that. But honestly, that time in my life has changed me forever...hopefully for the better. After I resigned as Doom I fell into a state of depression where many community members completely supported me and helped me during this time. (Thanks to all of those who did, especially @Turbine). Eventually I joined RM to just chill on the server and talk with friends. After Turbine resigned his position as Meds, I went to CG, under the command of Scribbles. (Sorry I forgot your name on here or I would've tagged you) Here I got more into the forums and started many many friends...and apparently enemies as well. I spent most of the rest of my time on the server in CG. If you don't know about all the stuff that happened with me on the forums, don't bother looking because it was pretty much all deleted (archived?) afterwards. I think one huge reason I don't like playing here anymore is because of all the time and effort I put into staff. I was a TRO, GM, and Vet Admin at one point and I gave it everything I had. Getting on every day for 6 hours on weekdays and about 12 hours on weekends. (These are not exaggerations, ask anyone that played with me). Rarely ever did I miss a day of playing on this server. I spent most of my time doing staff work, and the GM program completely ruined events for me. TRO was something I was very passionate about, but as I started to dislike playing on the server I lost my enthusiasm. Many of you warned me I would get burnt out, but I didn't listen. I decided I would give this server my all and see where it took me. Anyways my point is this server will always remain in a place in my heart as well as the people in it. There are far too many people to name that were just amazing friends and overall great people to be around. Maybe one day I will try to rejoin this community. I'm sorry for anyone that was hoping I would come back or that I let down. If you ever want to talk to me, you can add and message me on steam. My steam name is CaptainDeadly10. P. S. Remember back when the entire forums was angry with me and all those Deadly memes came out. The ones that were actually gay porn were 11/10. I will always love this community. "It's Doom's Unit or nothing." - Deadly 1 Report Link to comment
meowthemeower Posted July 11, 2018 Report Share Posted July 11, 2018 (edited) o7 I think that’s all I need to say you know how I feel and how much I will miss you also snap me sometimes I think I still have you added Edited July 11, 2018 by meowthemeower 1 Report Link to comment
Ccmonty Posted July 12, 2018 Report Share Posted July 12, 2018 o7 deadly ill miss you 1 Report Link to comment
Chambers Posted July 12, 2018 Report Share Posted July 12, 2018 o7 Good luck in life boy. 1 Report Link to comment
DracoOdinson Posted July 12, 2018 Report Share Posted July 12, 2018 Im Going to never forget you DU Guardian K I Draco 1 Report Link to comment
Conrad Posted July 13, 2018 Report Share Posted July 13, 2018 see you around man. 1 Report Link to comment
Scribbles Posted July 13, 2018 Report Share Posted July 13, 2018 Aaaa, ill miss you 1 Report Link to comment
Tackle Posted July 13, 2018 Report Share Posted July 13, 2018 (edited) -One. Leaving Doom's Unit is not a option, it's failure. Failure is the downfall of nations alike. Downfall is the action of demonishing eras. This era shall not be demonished. Raider. o7 Edited July 13, 2018 by Raider 1 Report Link to comment
Turbine Posted July 17, 2018 Report Share Posted July 17, 2018 You will be missed my good friend! Link to comment
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