Name: Thorpy
Steam ID: STEAM_0:0:144322066
Ban Reason: Ban reason was leaking docs but I was also toxic.
Date of Ban: 3/9/22
Length of Ban: Community Ban
Staff Member(s) Involved: Woeny
Reason(s) why we should accept your appeal:
I know many of you may have questions or conflicts of interest so please allow me to say something on the topic regardless of if i will be unbanned or not:
I know i hurt a lot of people and broke the trust of many. In this section I only wish to admit to my mistakes and try to re-establish a base level of mutual understanding of my situation and to amend relationships potentially. Im aware some of you may think this is to early for the amount of trolling, drama, toxicity and damage i've done to the community so ill understand if the community doesn't want me back or to wait longer than i have already (5 months). I’ve played on synergy since 2018 to 2022 on and off and this community had played significant role in my online life since then hence why i’m appealing.
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What actually happened and why i did what i did:
My time towards the end of SOBDE: During this time is where I changed from being in my opinion a rp’er and member of the community (during when I was tech). Many people such as Daytona211, Mavelle, Mazen, Hanz, Toaster, Bleach, Pythin , Meow , Ollie and Pronto who i considered my friends began to take notice to my toxicity and “villain arc” as Mazen put it. This was ultimately due to burn out, irl stress and events and influence from bad actors such as meeting Nalon, Frosty and Stix. Because of me talking to them all regularly certain biases were established around Mazen, Squishy, Clutch, Tessa and Gears ultimately leading to me being toxic towards them and their groups. This was essentially childish and wrong of me to do as I thought initially it was funny but I neglected the very community which allowed me to enjoy this server and all it had to offer. Because of that I left Tech and joined a battalion I thought was more laid back. Towards this point is where I met Royan. Although I've named people im not using them as a scapegoat and I 100% understand that what I did was on me with no excuse.
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Alpha Arc + Jedi Master before the leak and purge:
shortly after meeting and knowing Nalon and Frosty I met Royan. Royan was initially nice to me in a time of vulnerability and because of that I unintentionally thought I could trust him and told him about my personal life without knowing of his community banned status. Because of this he knew personal info about me and still claims he does to this day. He referenced where I lived and had my full name. My actual name isn't very common so this caught me off guard quite a bit. During this time as well Stix was my main friend in Synergy and many of you will recall that I played with him a lot such as when multiverses came out. Stix eventually met Royan, Myself, Seabass and Hansen in a discord and due to my friendship with Stix it ultimately led to constant arguments between Stix, Royan and myself. Due to this Royan eventually harassed me and Stix and Stix left the server whilst I was told in calls that he had my info and wasn't scared to leak it. Eventually after many group calls with him and his friends (most infamously phaser) he told me that in order for him not to do anything i would have to leak jedi aspects of the server shortly after his alt was banned and as he put it “snap”. I told Stix and although he didnt like Royan he did admit fucking over Squishy would be funny hence the encouragement from both parties. Thus due to me feeling burnt out, toxic, self-destructive and encouraged this concept eventually became reality.
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The leaking and wiping of Jedi documents:
There is no excuse for what I did, plain and simple. I affected so many people and hours and years of infrastructure and work and although some of you may not believe me i'm genuinely sorry for hurting the community and looking back it was childish, toxic and honestly embarrassing. Royan, Nalon and Frosty all created alts and harassed me to invite them to the server and wipe it and all docs to be leaked also pinning it on Hansen and Seabass despite them doing nothing so they eventually couldn't appeal as they thought it was and i quote “an epic troll”. As I lacked the morality to tell the synergy team and friends I didnt choose to mention my rancor position and the discord as a whole despite my ranking and permissions. Again this wasn't excusable and as a result I suffered the appropriate consequences. Again, words can not express how much I've lamented about this situation and just wanted to clarify the motives behind it and any potential questions.
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The Tessa situation:
Firstly I'm sorry @TessaKitty, as far as I know you don't play anymore and you may not hear this but I was out of line and truly sorry. I would also like to apologize to Rancor as a whole for tarnishing the name of the battalion and the stress i put HC through such as Ollie, Bleach, Satan and Void. During this situation, as mentioned before, it was during a time where I was childish, toxic and honestly a bit of a loser (which is no excuse). Stix maybe intentionally or unintentionally encouraged this drama and although i dont have evidence i can confidently say that many who were in Rancor at the time knew Stix and I were close and talked about it on the regular as he later joined CG to troll them and get insider info about what might happen to me. Again, no excuse for what I did and I just want to apologize and get off my chest why I did what I did and that I have great remorse for it.
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Evidence to support your claims:
Finally I just wanted to dedicate a section to individuals and groups in which I feel I was treated unjustly and as a result broke contact with and permanently damaged relationships with. I know this may be dumbed, laughed at or disregarded but from my point of view this is what is right and all of you deserve recognition and sincere apologies:
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@Mazen: No-one like you has seen me go from normal to toxic as much as you. I'm honestly sorry for the harassment, name-calling and toxicity towards you. You were a good friend to me and made my time in SOBDE fun, interesting and engaging. I know that honestly we will never be on the same level as we were before as friends but you out of all deserve a massive apology for my childish and toxic antics. There is no excuse for what I did to you and so many others but I hope you accept this apology regardless of if i'm unbanned or not.
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Mavelle, Hanz and Daytona211: I let you all down as a roleplayer and a member of SOBDE. I can't imagine the stress I may have put you through and as a result of what I did to you and others. I hope you can forgive me, I truly did value our relationship as a squad.
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@Dono,@Mystic, @Clutch and @Deathtiger: There is no surprise the beef we had went on for ages and honestly it was entirely my fault. Ultimately I was just jealous of your success and leadership, thus I was bitter. I'm sorry and hope in the future we can have a mutual friendship.
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@Pythin, @Bleach, @Gears, @Naffen, @meowthemeower and @Craigary: I felt during my time that all of you guys trusted me and enjoyed being around me. I know that personally I've kept in contact with many of you till this day and I'm forever grateful for the memories we made together. For me to 180 like that and destroy all trust, relationships and dignity you saw of me was shameful and I understand if that's why to this day you resent me, are ashamed of me and/or embarrassed of me and my actions. As a result the least I can do is apologize. I'm sorry.
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@Cooter and @chysk0: I won't discuss it here but we all know why we aren't as close as we were before and it was all my fault. I truly am remorseful for the destruction I did to whatever friendship we had which I valued and as a result I lament on why I did such actions. Hopefully this apology is enough to establish a mutual respect again between us despite my rage and toxicity.
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@Xaze, @Brooklyn, @Maddoxx, @Conrad, @Bbstine, @Marvel and @Woeny: Plain and simple, my toxicity and childish nature created drama between us and as a result created a mutual distrust, dislike and tarnishing of our mutual respect. I personally feel like we had initially before I was toxic. I'm sorry for being a pain and retrospectively looking back I can only commend you for your actions taken towards myself and many other distasteful actions of others as leaders of this community.
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@ToasterBath, @Void, @A-a-ron, @Ollie_ and @Bleach: Once good friends and people I would talk to for hours, the most i can do over text is convey how sorry I am for everything I did in Rancor and within the community despite you offering nothing but friendship and good times. I truly am sorry and words cannot express my remorse for what I did. Hopefully one day you can all forgive me.
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@Keegan, @Ghsy and @SEXICO: My day 1’s. You saw my rise and fall with me re-joining the community. I'm sorry I let you all down.
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@SquishyFishyy: Arguably probably one of the people who I targeted the most, and for stupid and childish reasons. Despite your positive attitude and open-mind I shit-talked you and did a terrible thing during your term. Retrospectively looking back, I can't emphasize the gratitude I have to you during my time as a Jedi and 41st. For someone to stay positive and selfless amidst my actions is honorable and despite you leaving and probably never seeing this I do hope we can talk and establish another friendship as we initially had.
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Conclusion/TLDR:
If I missed anyone in the community I am sincerely sorry and I'm frankly embarrassed looking at all the apologies I've had to get off my chest as a result of my own actions. I wanted to take a moment to thank and apologize to this awesome community. I know many of you will laugh, dumb or not care about this appeal. The actions of myself have hurt the community and although this is an appeal thread the main intention of this was to apologize in an effective way as many of you have broken all communication/blocked me. I know that for some, many dont want to see me back now, for a while or indefinitely. Whilst all i can say is sorry its up to the community and that is more than fair. I acknowledge that if I was to ever return I wouldn't be trusted and I accept that and intend to come with a positive mindset and turn over a new leaf. Regardless of my outcome however and what occurs I hope you can all forgive me and see this as a genuine apology.
If any of you want to reach out and talk my discord is 2e#4549 - Thorpy.
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