TurfFish69

Hiya Ryanx, I rescind such behaviours, I joined super late into the event, got lead to brig where I followed other 212th members in there. I had a laugh, a joke, I think its an unfair assesment to say "You haven't changed at all" just because I said "General Gravy Sauce" as an event was ending and that I had banter with a CG member whom I know quite well, OOCly. Saying I havent changed, by that same logic, I wouldve just continued to minge back on Rakata, gotten arrested, banned etc. I appreciate such feedback, as i've stated previously, but when someone says something so outrageously wrong and damaging to my reputation/image, I'm in my right mind to defend myself. Please understand that I have changed, I have grown a considerable amount and I am not who I once was. Your claim is irrefutably false.

P.S: I've been awfully busy sorting out university crap and working, I've been simply unable to. I'm writing alot of these messages late night(s) after work. I should be free in the upcoming weeks and will be on, back to usual Turf Fish scheduling.

Hiya Moose! I've restrained from responding to alot of these comments, but I just wanted to honour your comment with a response. I wholly appreciate the feedback, I wanted to explain the reason why my application is designed the way it is. It's completely intentional. I wanted people to get a feel for whom I am as a person before anything else. It's one of my firm believes that skills can be applied to problems, no matter any previous merit or lack there-of. To put into an example, one I've actually had the pleasure of going through...: When I first started my barworking job 2 years ago, I had never even stepped FOOT into a bar/nightclub. I had no idea how to pour beer, how to make cocktails, how to handle myself, etc etc. It was all a mystery to me. It took me to be thrown into the deep end on a busy, and I mean BUSY Friday night rush, when I was able to preform and exceed expectations. I was able to preform well under pressure and learn things as and when I needed to. Being able to adapt and problem solve on the fly, often times without a manager there to hold my hand or show me how to do things. I am able to preform, grow, learn. remaster, sculpt things on the fly. All I need is to be thrown out of the comfortable birds nest of being an NCO and given an opportunity to shine. Given my writing in previous texts, its intentional like I said. I need to get put into the deep end for everyone to watch me swim, not sink.

What Turf Fish as BCMD would look and feel like is: A leader who listens to feedback, using said feedback, divulges a plan on how to reform and working on improving each sub-regiment. Propose radical change and be unafraid of taking risks and big leaps, fearlessly. Read into the core problems that are leading the 212th away from recognising its true potential on the server. If it really is the way, that I need everyones approval, then that ultimately defeats the point of my story and my intentions. I didn't want to apply under false pretenses, leadership takes someone to dare standing up and be willing to put in the work to steer 212th in the direction it deserves. Leadership takes someone with balls to stand up and believe in themselves and what they are fighting for. That's what I've done. I wont sit here and lie to the people of Synergy, I am probably an unlikely candidate, but I am willing to learn, listen to peoples feedback and employ my skills in fixing problems and offering radical change within the battalion. I wont stop ever pushing for that, something I believe in. I'll put in the effort, I'll grow, I'll learn, Innevitably I'll make mistakes. But you can tell alot about a person, how they react to adversity and strife. I believe in myself and I will continue work on things until I've given all I possibly could to Synergy and 212th. I will offer Integrity, self-awareness, courage, respect, compassion and resilience. Thats what makes a leader. That's what would make me a good BCMD. A good Cody. #OrangePride #TurfForBCMD

I appreciate all the feedback on both sides of things. It's incredible to read all of this and see how many people actually reached out. Be it good or bad, whatever the outcome of this application is, I take it all in stride! I believe in myself. I wont stop believing in myself. All of this means a tremendous amount to me. #OrangePride #TurfForBCMD

Hiya Nexus, Due to the nature of my character and being tied to my history, naturally, against my will, this application and all that surrounds it will be controversial. I ask that constructive feedback is given and arguing and/or judging people for their views/beliefs on me is kept to either yourselves or at the very best DM eachother about it. I do not want to promote or allow negativity and judgement behind me or anyone whom holds their view on me and my application. Thanks for your understanding! <3

Steam Name: Afternoon RP Name: 212th HVY SSG Turf Fish RP Rank: SSG Steam ID: STEAM_0:0:55466905 Battalion you are applying for: 212th Attack Reg Experience: Former Sargeant Major for the 212th (Another Sever, a while ago now), And Former Minge. Why should you become a Battalion Commander?: I for a long time doubted myself and my capabilities to take seriously any sort of position in any regiment, and as a whole take Star WarsRP seriously, but as I spent more and more time on this server, getting to know the Ins and outs of how Synergy operates, I also got a real feel and sense of community and belonging here. Despite all my previous behaviours, warns, kicks, bans, I've since chosen to take up the righteous path and work on reforming myself. I found myself wanting to keep coming back and work on my behaviours. From being a rude, mingey, good for nothing CT, I've managed to genuinely fight for my right to take part on this server and mean something to our fellow troopers and staff-alike. Everyone doubted me at first, becoming a private in 212th, then PFC, and then Specialist, at each hurdle, I got comments like... "How long is this gonna last Turf?" "How the f**k did you get into a regiment, Turf?" "Turf actually telling people he's gonna be good and improve? Ha, yeah right!" I ignored them, I understood why such comments were made, be it in jest, or as a serious jab to me. I understood where they were coming from, without a doubt. BUT! I, Turf Fish, ignored them, because I knew finally I found somewhere I belong, somewhere I can actually apply myself and do good, for my battalion, for my battalions image, and for myself! People started to catch wind of my "Reformity" from what I once was, people saw me hit Sargeant, and finally people started to recognise and appreciate the fact that I'm actually here and working on being better. And this only came around due to the immense love shown to me by the 212th. Without PJ and Warmaster, and of course may others, I wouldnt be here applying on this forum, nevermind on the server for Cody. What I mean to say is, I regret the past, but we all have them. I'm here now, trying my best for Synergy, for the 212th, and for myself... But finally, to answer the question...! I think I should become Battalion Commander for the 212th as I want to serve as an image for fellow troopers that, whatever decisions you decide to make, be it good, bad, ugly, etc... You can always offer yourself up and be better for the people that care. I really want to serve as BCMD, grabbing the Bull by its horns and start to steer 212th into a much more vibrant, lively and exciting regiment to join and be a part of! It's my passion to offer my leadership skills and time to improve the 212th. I think it's crucial, if I was to get BCMD, to really focus on the feedback given from both inside of 212th, and out. A big part of me taking on this role, and why I'd be a good fit is that I am determined to overcome any hurdle put infront of me. Not only this, but I am very interested in strengthening bonds between fellow 212th members and other regiments, as I feel there is a slight disconnect which is stopping us from all reaching and recognising eachothers potential, both in training, OOCly, or in events. Right now, 212th is hurting without a Battalion Commander at the helm, leading them and being a rolemodel. I think that again, because there is nobody at the top, there is a real disconnect when it comes to working on feedback and decision making. BCMD serves as a figure head, someone to look up to and listen to, I know I could be that person, that Cody, for all of 212th. I'd make an excellent fit for Cody, I have the drive, love, will and passion for it. I'll ensure our regiment grows, both in numbers, and in strength. I've also got the added benefit of one hell of a redemption story, I feel as if I've really captured the hearts and minds of the people of Synergy, and I plan to use that also to my advantage. I'll be reaching out, asking for advice, and I can say confidently, due to my nature, character and history here, I will not be allowed to fail. My mere presence in the 212th and now current rank and intentions have really garnered more eyes on us, and I'd love to show everyone just what I could do. Availability: Most days past: 1700 hours GMT:(00:00) I work bartending hours, and occasionally I get placed on nights, but due to the time difference, this actually serves to mine and your benefit, as I will always gaurantee to be on high pop times! Estimate of how long you've played on Synergy Roleplay?: On and off now for 2-3 months. Day or two total hours. Do you have a microphone?: Yes, Blue Yeti :D Where do you want your battalion to be at the end of your term?: I'd have my battalion at the end of my term, be able to confidently say their voices and respected, heard and valued. Not only this, but I want my battalion to grow in character, people in lead positions fill up Ghost Company, 2ndAC and medical roles and specialist units alike. I will work tirelessly to ensure that we pull together as a battalion and push that brotherly love clones are known for. At the end of my term, I would have hopefully boosted peoples morale and perspective on themselves, recognising and appreciating peoples potential and employing that for the betterment of the battalion. I really want to prove to everyone, both in the 212th, and the server, that we arent just a random assortment of people cobbled together, being just another number, logging off after each event just for merit points. I will push for togetherness, respect and dignity inside of the 212th. I will be the Judge and Jury for the 212th, a voice for each member and a brother to look up to. I also want to really push for prestigious awards such as Battalion of the Month, and seeing members of the 212th getting RPer of the week! At the end of my term, I am confident I will have scored these for our battalion, sinking a few more awards for the regiment, gaining us more respect, eyes on the regiment and bragging rights! Don't forget the bragging rights! Friendly rivalry (to a certain degree) is healthy! Do you understand that if you go inactive that you will be removed from your position?: I understand this. Do you understand that your position has a three month term limit and you must reapply after three months to maintain your commander rank?: Copy that, understood. Thank you reader, for your time, patience and willing. #TurfForBCMD