SeabassAppeal

So this is one of the things I regret the most. When I was banned, and after Kirito posted a video ranting about me and other people I had played with, I reached out to Limited and Piggy as I knew they had involvement with making videos on Synergy trolling and messing with people in the past. I had thought it would be funny to work with some people to get them an interview with Kirito. The video speaks for itself, and I have tried to reach out to Kirito and his friends to make an apology, which I still would very much like to speak with them to express it verbally. As is said, Hansen was involved in this too and did apologize to Kirito as well and got his blessing for an appeal. This was a horrible idea, and it spread through the community very fast as people thought it was funny. I reached out to Kirito as well as others around a week or two ago, apologizng and telling him it'll never happen again. The community has even allowed Limited and Piggy to keep playing the server after they got banned ages ago and even sponsor them now, showing how things can change over time

I understand why you might think i would do it again, i learned a few things while at camp and getting therapy and basically decided that the best way I could rebuild trust is time, i hope to rebuild it by being a productive member of the server

Origionally I wasn't going to mention any of this because I know some people will push it off as me trying to gain sympathy, so I'll try to say this the best I can but this is the exact opposite of a "sob story" after I stopped alting, I went to a camp for general improvement in december until early feburary, I got therapy, I actually did change and the reason you can't see it is because I know you as well as many others, cant forgive me and see anything other than the immature child that I was. I honestly don't blame you. My question is how did I never give a damn over this community, I played for a full year, spent money, and genuinley enjoyed playing, only reason I did what I did was I felt alone, I was weak, and I've admitted it and continue to grow from it. Also, if i didn't care, Why would I appeal? This is true, like I said I did get therapy and apologize to many people I hurt. I would like to adress this, I did do many terrible things, and Im still ashamed of it and cringe whenever i think about it. I'm not trying to dance around any of what I did when I say this, In all honesty I could've sworn I adressed this with the homophobic post portion but I guess I didn't specifically mention it, I did say slurs and many inaproiate things to people in dm's after my ban. what I did was no better than what others did, I had nothing to lose, the reason I stopped was because of genuine change, I was messed up in the head, itll never happen again and for that i am sorry to you and everyone Who i did such things to. I would never do this again because I've changed, I didn't make changes to who I am to just appeal and return and continue, I genuinley have changed since december, I know it looks like it's a group appealing, it's just me, I dont know of anybody else appealing besides those who already have. I just want a chance to fix things i've broken, because before I did what i did i believe I genuinley was a positive on the community. To make it short, I did these things. I have received help for the things i've done and apologized, I dont expect all to be forgive, but this is not me trying to avoid anything, its the opposite.

**THIS APPEAL WAS CLEARED TO BE POSTED** Name: Seabass Steam ID: STEAM_0:0:558242660 Ban Reason: Leaking docs, Homophobic post, leaking discord invites Date of Ban: 7/26/22 Length of Ban: Community Ban Staff Member(s) Involved: Woeny Reason(s) why we should accept your appeal: Before I get to the start, I would like to say until recently (Late December), I had no intentions of appeal or ever returning to the server, but recently talking with Hansen being back on the server and speaking with him about this, along with many other people who play, I have decided to do an unban appeal with the intent of return and I understand If I return I will be heavily watched To start I will mention the offenses I committed In order, and what my actions were that led to them: Doc Leaking: The reason why I did what I did was mainly because of how separated I felt from the community due to my own acts, with not taking the server as serious and trolling often, as well as the people I surrounded myself with, most of which were community banned and thought of it as a “flex” that they were banned from the server. It doesn’t change the fact of what I did, but recently (December) I have stopped participating in such acts. I shortly thereafter took the next step after Nalon was banned because I had seen him do all of these things for so long. Once I started down the path Nalon went down, I felt it was too late to return as a (semi) respected member of the community at this point. After this, Hansen was not on the server for a few days or so due to him being on vacation, I truly felt alone on the server and in general lonely when playing due to pushing others away from me with my toxic acts. The entire time, I felt I had no purpose on the server and was unwanted. Looking back on it, I definitely should’ve taken an LOA or taken a break, anything other than what I did. I felt a majority of the community saw me as undesirable to have around. This, along with the fact most of the people I talked to were community banned, I thought the best way to handle this was to never come back and get permanently banned. I leaked 4 documents, sobde roster, sobde tryouts, jedi tryouts, and ARC selections. I went into this knowing I was going to be banned, so I committed the most destruction I could. At the time, I never wanted to play the server again or talk to anyone on the server again. I had the completely wrong mindset. I should’ve reached out to a liaison of the community or anybody who could understand what I was going through and told them my situation before I tarnished every friendship, relationship, and general relation I had on the server forever. Leaking Discord Invite: Immediately after I was banned for doc leak, I sent other banned members of the community an invite to the command discord where they sent inappropriate messages. After this, I was rightfully banned from every discord. Homophobic Post(July 25th): This occurred the same time right after the Doc Leak and discord situation. I believe this goes with the discord invite, I sent inappropriate messages along with slurs to people I had “beef” with in the discord and the forms. I was banned shortly after. I did both of these actions while I felt I had nothing to lose, doing this was petty and uncalled for. Alting: Looking back at many of the things I did while alting I honestly cringe at what I did, After these offenses, I alted a week or so later. I broke the trust of a lot of people during this, in my opinion this was my worst offense. I started acting like I was a new player who wanted to join and get many positions and spots. I ended up getting enough credits to buy VIP, I became a Senator as well as getting 41st Heavy Ordnance. At the time I started to think people were catching on, so I thought it would be best to end it and create a new account. I mass-RDM’d a Debrief as HVO and insulted people there while doing it. Looking back I should’ve owned up and realized what I was doing was wrong, taken the ban like a real man, rather than continuing to come back time and time again to cause more damage. I came back several more times for the next 2-3 months. I joined 41st and pretty much only typed. This was when the server had a rough patch, It was a week or two after this the server recovered and an event was hosted with 50-60 people on. In my head, I thought I wouldn’t have another chance to do what I did again, I mass RDM’d a debrief. This time what I did was much worse. It had much more people at the DB and new players were joining pretty consistently at this time. I was running around the DB yelling insults and slurs, disrupting the DB and the server as a whole, and ruining the experience for everyone. After this, I leaked more documents. I don’t know which exact ones they were, but I believe they were more rancor/SOBDE. People knew it was me and I was banned again. Around this time, instead of joining a battalion, I subtly alted as a CT, occasionally participating in events and going on the intercom and getting banned for alting. This was still unacceptable though, I don’t feel I fully changed until December, on Christmas, I decided to try joining a battalion. I joined 21st and got HVY, but was banned the next day. At this time (December) I saw the damage I truly did. Many people reached out to me and just asked me to stop. It wasn't funny anymore, I finally saw I was doing real damage to real people, people I truly knew and cared about now saw me as an insufferable, pathetic, annoying leech who wouldn’t go away. This time I decided I was done for good. I have yet to be in TeamSpeak, discord, forms, or anything synergy related since. I know most people on synergy may never want to ever see or talk to me again. I broke bridges and they’ll never be fixed again. Nobody will look at me the same way ever again for all I've done. I took advantage of people's kindness and ruined everything good I had done for the server. Originally I was going to publicly post each and every apology, but after consideration, I decided to instead DMed the proper people in private who I feel I owe an apology to for my actions. There are a few people who I do want to quickly give a general apology to everyone who had to directly deal with my alting, doc leaking, and all of my general acts. All the damage I did was my fault and my actions, I 100% should’ve taken a different approach and had a different mindset on pretty much everything during this. Doc leaking, alting, all of this was my fault and caused entirely by my actions. I was weak and did these acts on my decision in the end. For that, I am unexplainably sorry to the Founders, High Staff, Server Leadership, and the Community as a whole. I let you all down, and regardless of anything that happens on this appeal after this, I will never do anything close to these actions again after seeing the true damage of everything I did. TLDR/Conclusion: My actions are my own. Everything I have done on the server from July-December I heavily regret and have grown from. All im asking for is a chance, looking back the actions I did speak louder than words, and some of many terrible things I have done are truly unforgivable, but I feel truly ready to be reintegrated on the server due to the changes I have made in the past months, along with trying my best to make things right, regardless of any of the circumstances or influence in the past. Many of the people who I have hurt can’t forgive me, I understand why and have nobody to blame but myself. Everything that I did and was banned for was my doing and caused by me. For that, I offer my apology to the entire server. All of these terrible things I have done I am giving my word regardless of the result of this appeal, it will never happen again from my doing. This is a server where people should be having a good time with hundreds of other people from all around the world, instead of worrying about the possibility that a new player is somebody alting, and I'm done and have been done causing damage. My discord is cpassballer#0554 if anybody wishes to reach out and ask a question about anything on this appeal