TBH You did fuck up but im glad that in these rare moments the person that was banned agreed he screwed up and you payed the price by loosing staff. I hope you learned your lesson and plan to change the way you act. But I think you seek redemption so I say give him a chance but I think you should take 1 day off to cool down +1 (fyi everyone fucks up ask @Joah He saved my ass once from getting demoted) - Dont let IRL bring you down venting on the server will only make your image get worse ;( I still love you and hope you get better soon.