My way || Jayarr's Resignation

[Jayarr]

 

 

After a few weeks full of contemplation, I sit here now writing this out with confidence and a calm mind.

It was a was year ago this month that I made my return to this server. But it wasn't quite what I was expecting. I didn't know anyone, and barely anyone knew me. Times had changed so drastically from when I first made my mark on star wars RP all those years ago, and it was something I wasn't quite ready to face up to.

That hesitance wasn't something I lived up to, though. As I caught up with one of the few familiar faces, that being the founders, I realized that maybe a different approach was laid out before me then I had initially thought. Through talks with @Square, and after having already started working on a new map, I was picked up into the development team, where nothing short of an amazing journey started, and is now ending here today, on a much lesser note might I add.

People like @Mazen when he was cody were quick to pick up on me becoming a Developer, and while I didn't quite know who bacta was at the time, he ended up forging into one of my strongest connections and one of my closest friends on the server. I have a whole group of friends now, which I quite frankly lacked coming into this server. That is what I will take away from all of this, and what I can strongly familiarize myself as an accomplishment.

As for my time as developer, it was nothing short of a rollercoaster. I've faced some hardships, but too few to count as an experience I won't remember. Things got caught on the upswing only four or so months after I got developer, where the team started coming together, starting with @Xaze. There is no better partner I could have asked for when it comes to development, and often times we were able to see eye to eye on things we both agreed and disagreed with. It feels unjust to leave the team at the current state the server is in, but I've played my hand long enough and delayed this resignation for months, as I'm sure @Jadremembers from one conversation. I likely wouldn't still be here if he didn't convince me to stay.

As for the position I hold on the server at the moment, I quite frankly do not care. I've become palpatine to implement changes, and I've seen some of them through. I had bigger plans, and I regret that I couldn't quite touch up on all the factions to the extreme I wanted to, but all things considered, I'm not going to be holding an in game position higher over how I feel in general.

Life's a hard game to play, and I've been out of it for too long. I could surround myself with the fantasy that is star wars RP for much longer, but I've dumped seven, nearly eight years into this. I don't want to reflect on that when I grow to be older, I don't want to ponder in a saddened way about how I wasted near a decade my life doing something the inevitably never lead to anything for me as a person. It's a harsh reality, and while I've not been able to come to acceptance about it before, I've forced myself to this conclusion for the betterment of both my health, and for me as a person.



What ill-will I may have will stay out of this post, as I've said it loud and clear in the places I think matter. I don't tend to shout people out, because those who matter most to me will still be hearing from me often enough through discord and likely TeamSpeak.



I wish you all luck.
I'm glad to have helped where and when I could have.

 

"Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course
Each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this
I did it my way"

[traditional]

o7

[Perssongi]

o7 Lizard people scare me

Edited October 9, 2022 by Perssongi

[Stockings]

Big shout out to Jayarr.  Thanks for making a grand comeback man.  

[Hanz]

o7 One of the funniest and nicest guys in the community. Really hope to see you around in TS

[Comics]

You're a funny guy and one with integrity. You did what you could and didn't break from your stance.

This resignation is a truth bomb!

[Cox]

Damn y’all the realest to ever do it just stepped out

[Bacta]

Fantastic friend, you got true passion, and talents not alot of people will ever have, cant wait to see what you can do.

Edited October 9, 2022 by Mazen

[Lyonaxis]

I am very happy I took the chance to reconnect when I first saw you and Chop join back, It's been quite a while now and throughout this time I'd like to say you've been one of my closest friends. It's sad to see you leave Palpatine but I know we'll still be in contact so luckily this isn't a goodbye but rather a sad end to your Palpatine term, a term I personally really wanted you to attempt.. I don't regret asking you constantly to go for it because you did great. 

[Aegis]

I never really got to know you very well, but all the time we did spend together was a ton of fun. I wish you the best on your next adventure.

[Daytona211]

It's been a pleasure man thanks for all you have done both personally and for the server. 

Keep in touch!

[Conrad]

Oh shit this is from everything not just palpatine. Fuck. Now I’m sad. 

[Canadian Milk]

it was great seeing you again pal,

always my doom and always your worst WO <3

[A-a-ron]

Oh shit this was real, have a good one man

[Bleach]

i love this man

[GregRocks]

I almost have no words. I didn't know you well, but I've known of you since I started on Synergy. You're an absolute real one, a true Synergy legend. Good luck wherever you may find yourself!

[Ccmonty]

07 bud. Glad to have been able to reconnect a bit

[Void]

Going to miss you mate, honestly loved our interactions in-game and in teamspeak whenever I had the opportunity to talk to you. Take care of yourself and I wish you a bright future, you deserve it. Love ya.

[Forseen]

It's with a very heavy heart that I write this resignation. You've always been a close friend of mine, from the time you were around initially to when you returned and I hope that I'm one of the lucky ones that will continue to hear from you as you travel down the pathway that is life.

What you have achieved here in Synergy is something that very few will ever achieve within our community, you always put your best foot forward for the community and always had the players in mind with everything that you did. It was an honor and a pleasure to be able to work alongside you as a member of our development team.

I wish you all the best in life, feel free to always pop in or reach out and say hello, and if you ever need anything (especially from an Aussie), hit me up.

o7

[Wheezy]

Thankyou for everything you did I appreciate the new map the good times we all had with you im upset I still never got my smooch but I hope life gives you the best it possibly can! Thankyou Honey Bunny! <3

[Mystic]

o7 though we never spoke much i very much enjoyed everything you've done for this community

[Cubby]

o7. Shoulda went out with another public demotion IMO but that's ok

[Rudy]

Listen brotha, never really talked to you in game besides standing next to you as palpatine for 3 hours, but Only heard great things, o7 brotha, enjoy life. 

[Marvel]

Actually speechless :( I'll miss u Jayarr...

[Som]

Man was actually fun fucking around and hanging out with you man, hopefully will see you around in ts or discord o7

[Bonzai]

Jayarr I'll always remember yelling at you as a squeaker to stop being a minge and you telling me to fuck off during the early days. You will be missed o7 :)

[Metro]

o7 Jayarr. Thanks for all you did and all the good times both from the past and most recent stint.

[Egert]

o7 I really never talked with you, but you were an awesome developer and player in the community, wish you the best

[Tec]

o7, you were always an absolute blast to be in a channel with, not to mention a badass Dev. This post is honestly super relatable and I genuinely enjoyed reading it, so thank you for that <3
Good luck in the future and in life. Much love to you!

 

[Neopolitan]

I didn't know you for long, or get to become much of anything, but I do think you are an awesome person. I wish you best in your future endeavors. <3

[TessaKitty]

The server will be a different place without you Jayarr. I was sceptical of you when I first came back. I was doing the 24/7 squinting emoji IRL. The sus one. But then I realised that you were actually a pretty complex person. You brought some real passion for RP to the table and some of the best fun I've had on the server has been at your side as Fox. SOMETIMES AS THORN TOO! You will be missed brochacho.

Sleep well 

[Slump]

Damn bruh, you been a real one since way back in 2019 sad to see you go honestly. Hit me or Zeikk up whenever you wanna play Tarkov 

Best Recon Reg still ;)

Edited October 9, 2022 by Slump

[Maverick]

Thank you jayarr for any moments we did share together. I know I’ve been a little annoying but I did it with you and xazr because I think y’all are pretty decent. I appreciate more than anything the heart and soul you poured in. I wish I had been more helpful but ya know. Thank you jayarr. O7

[Finn]

RIP. You were a real one. Good luck to whatever you decide to do in the future!

 

Also pls keep in touch, you're one of the few people I consider a true friend on the server.

Edited October 9, 2022 by Finn

[Spieler]

Ever since my first interactions with you, I've always thought you were nothing short of an amazing person. Any time I would open TS, I would be so excited to you and other friends in a channel together. It's a shame that things ended up unfolding the way they did in the end, but I hope that you will still look back fondly on all of the good times in the past year. I will never forget all of the early mornings with everyone in TS, and I hope that we'll continue to talk for a long time. I'm genuinely so happy that I can think of you as a friend.

[Xaze]

Jayarr, it's been a pleasure working with you. I really appreciate al the hard work you put in for the development team and for the community. You were definitely my partner in crime, and it will not be the same without you.

You always have a spot on the development team if you ever decide to come back. 

[Xylops]

Wtf This ain't very funny
o7

[meowthemeower]

One of the best dooms I served under although we wernt insanely close my little interactions with you spanning the scale of almost 5 years now taught me a lot about how people should act and about the server itself and life. You’ve taught me a lot without evening meaning to and you barley know me😂. Don’t wanna blab so I’ll say this final thing, you have done so much for this community and for me and I thank you. o7 brother. 

[Whataburger]

:/ o7

[Elijah]

o7

<3

[BlueBeetle]

This really hurts to see, honestly. I didn't necessarily know you all that well or all that long unlike the others. Most of the times we spoke was through roleplay purposes. I don't think it was really until I got HA that we started talking a little more, and even then it wasn't that long ago. Though in the short time I was able to talk to you more, you really were a good person. Kindhearted, determined, and overall fun to be around. I wish I was either here longer or made more of an effort to get to know you better. Regardless, it truly is sad to see you depart.

I wish you nothing but the best in your future endeavors, and please remember to be safe and take care of yourself.

o7

Edited October 10, 2022 by BlueBeetle

[Ron]

Everyone's time eventually comes.

I didn't get to interact with you much during your return as I have been MIA and away from the Community from quite some time, but it was refreshing to see a new face with ideas and consistently interacting with the community when I would check in once in awhile. You have definitely grown as a person from when I originally met you during the split.

I wish you the best in your future endeavors.

[Fizzik]

5 hours ago, Ron said:

Everyone's time eventually comes.

I didn't get to interact with you much during your return as I have been MIA and away from the Community from quite some time, but it was refreshing to see a new face with ideas and consistently interacting with the community when I would check in once in awhile. You have definitely grown as a person from when I originally met you during the split.

I wish you the best in your future endeavors.

Seeing you post made my knees and back hurt.